Depression Hurts

I'm calling it depression.  What else can it be?  I have never felt better in my life as I felt this week.  Then?  My husband starts yelling at me today once again because I'm spending more time than he deems necessary cleaning the house AND I wasn't cleaning the area he thought should be cleaned first.  Seriously.  I even told him this, "I'm damned if I do and I'm damned if I don't!"  His response?  "Well, I guess you're damned then because I look around and the point of entry to our house isn't cleaned!"

I made it through most of the day (in which he thankfully was gone at a football game) but as soon as he walked in the door, it was like my face was made of wax and it melted.  I can't smile, my head hurts, I don't want to talk to anyone, I'm tired and I couldn't battle the forces that are battling within me.  I ate some beef and rice casserole I made for the family.  Then I ate some brownies my daughter and her friend made.  Then I ate some pizza the girls made.  And you know what?  I feel worse then I have felt in months.  I can't believe I did that.  

Stress is terrible for fat peeps.  And talk about depressing:  I saw an ad on television for a pill that is supposed to act like "liposuction" in a pill.  The depressing part was the example they showed of a human body with the fat cells in the stomach, flat as a board, barely visible.  Then they show a tummy after babies were born.  A little more yellow fat showed up.   THEN they showed a tummy after work and stress and life was factored in.  HUGE.  And it looked like mine.  And I wonder why I'm feeling depressed?  Nah, not really.  I don't wonder at all.

I'll be back on the wagon first thing tomorrow morning with my Shaklee Cinch Detox (probably starting from the beginning, but it's a beginning I'm looking forward to start again) and all next week should be a wonderful week.  My husband is leaving early tomorrow morning for a business trip and won't be back until Friday.  I can detox to my heart's content without a massive level of stress.  Here's to healthy eating and good feelings starting tomorrow...